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there are some times in my life when I wonder if there are lessons that I just haven't learned, if there are things that I just keep repeating because I just don't get it.

In this season of change, here's what's transpired since I last wrote:

-That person has been out of my life, but sent me a cryptic message this week?  Not sure what to make of that one...

-Sean has become a Kindergarten Star.  He's great.  And he's growing everyday.  He's now taking piano and LOVING it. :)

-Husband says he wants to try a different line of work.  My heart is beyond overjoyed.  That means soon he'll be home with us in the evenings. :)

-I may be out of work next year.  Yes, teaching isn't the stable market it used to be.  On another note, I may lose my certification also...sheesh.

-I'm really trying hard to keep it all together.  I'm trying so hard.  I want some relief.  I need a personal sabbatical.

-I'm trying to have more babies.  And I'm working really hard at it, too. ;)

Okay, just wanted to give you an update, and perhaps, hopefully, in the near future, I'll give you more details.

Sometimes it's just good to put it all out there.  I'm so tired.

Well, take care.  Hope to blog with you again soon. :)

Tears

I'm ready to burst into tears at any moment for any reason...and actually, it's just for one reason. 
I'll never understand why until it's all over, I suppose...but it's my own fault.  I suppose it has to do with choice.

While I'm not unhappy with my choice, in fact, I'm very happy with it, I still wonder about the other choice.  The other choice might have caused me to walk a very different path, but I might have been just as happy...or...

but I will never know.  I do know that I'm so sad right now because...well, because of him.

I just need a day or two to get this all out of my system.

I promise to return to my normal laughing smiling happy self.

Just not today.

Today, I need to let it all out.

Goodbye.

Goodbye.

Well! Have I got some things to share with you!

...it's been far too long!  I'm so sorry!  But, since I have posted, a LOT of things have happened.

First, my brother Anthony got married!  I was a bridesmaid, and it was absolutely wonderful.  It was such a beautiful and intimate wedding.  To be honest, there were a lot more people there than I originally thought would come for such a small affair.  But, it was...without trying to sound like a story...just right. :)

I enjoyed having such a great time with my family.  It was such an amazing time.

Also, we watched as much of the Olympics as we possibly could.  Both my husband and son were ready to evict me because I wanted ALL Olympics ALL the time! LOL!  I was a little fanatical, but I love sports, and the Olympics only comes around every four years!  ;D

My mother in law (Mom Roland) had open heart surgery.  I was not nervous about the surgery, in fact, I pretty much knew she would be fine...but it was my brothers in law that had me getting all anxious - that and the fact that we had to leave to return to Maryland on the DAY of her surgery!!!!

Initially, her surgery and my brother's wedding were scheduled for the same day (I can't make this stuff up!), but the doctor pushed the date back - and this was not the first time he had changed the date on us.  In July, we were expecting a call any day to head to Texas...but they rescheduled to August, and then changed it so we almost missed being with her, even though it hurt my heart so much to leave her. 

She's truly like my other mother.  No one can replace my Mommy, but my mother in law is truly my mother also. :)   I know some of you out there know exactly what I'm talking about.

Sean has completed his first week of Kindergarten!  So far, nothing but success!  He's happy and so are we!  And, yes, we photographed his first day as if he was a celebrity.  In fact, as Dray was filming a video of us walking into the school, Sean turned to him and said, "I'm getting really tired of this." 
LOL!!!!!  I couldn't help but laugh about it, poor kid - we did turn his first day of school into a celebrity paparazzi filled press conference kind of day!  ;P

My first day is on Monday, and I'm excited.  I had to endure a bit of drama, but trust me, that is for another post.  I'm truly excited and so grateful for this school year, and I look forward to all the blessings God has for me and my family this year.  I hope that the Lord shines his lovingkindness and goodness on each and every one of you! 

Peace.

So much....

since my last post.  I wanted to write and write and write.  I truly did.  Now, though, I just don't have it in me to do.

It's late, but this is very overdue.  So, what has happened since we last got together?

Well, I am no longer teaching math.  I will be teaching, instead, introduction to engineering and design, considering this is my background.  I'm excited about the challenge, but, it would be nice to get the opportunity to teach something for longer than a year or so before I teach a different subject I've never taught before. :)

I consider it an honor and privilege, though, because that must mean they (administration, etc.) believe I will be successful.  What more can I say and what else could I ask for? :)

My brother is getting married.  In about three weeks, actually.  I'm excited and happy for him as he prepares to embark on this journey.  Oh, and he's also taking the Texas State Bar next week.

Good times. ;)

Sean is going to Kindergarten, and as the days get closer, I become more of a wreck.  But, truthfully, inside of my inner mom watching her baby grow before her very eyes, I sense a calm coming.  He's the most wonderful thing.  I love him so, and I believe he will be a great success at school.

Okay, that's all I've got for now.  I'm off.

It was great to see you again.

I promise to update again...and hopefully sooner rather than later.

I should do this way more often than I do.

Peace.

I'm tired, and I need a break!!!!

It's almost the end of the school year and I have run out of steam.  I need a serious vacation, and I am doing my level best to keep myself from breaking down into tears at any moment.

I love my work and teaching is probably one of the best things that has happened to me.  However, I don't think that most people realize the drain, stress and strain it puts on your body, mind, and soul.  I know that each and everyday, there are educators across this great nation that go to work and give every single thing they have to their students.

This leaves their family and friends with what is left.  And I know for me, it's not fair to my son or my husband.  I definitely need to work on a proper life/home/work balance.

I'm toast.

Hopefully this summer will rejuvenate and relax me so I can come back with renewed vigor and be ready to be the best each I can be.

I love learning and growing at every possibility.  I hope to become one of the greatest educators in the nation, maybe even the world.

God bless and may you all love your work as much as I do!

Peace.

Now it's time to say goodbye...

And I will miss my seniors terribly.  Well, honestly, I'll miss lots of them, and some of them just a little.  ;-)
Truthfully, this time of year always brings good feelings to me.  It's the time of year when hope is renewed for everyone.  So many young people (and some older ones, too), are entering into a new phase of life, one where they will fulfill some dreams and begin to dream new ones.  I am always so happy to see people going off into their bright and shiny tomorrow.

I'll probably do this every year, but I'm so happy and excited for all.

Here's to you, graduates, and may your futures be bright and your dreams always big!

I need a break

You know how it seems everything is going...and going...and time won't slow down so you can catch your breath?  That is exactly where I am now.  I'm so tired of pushing on.

I guess this is the time that your faith comes to play.  This is the time when you decide to dig deep and push on, knowing that there is a greater source that you can drawn strength.  Where you can receive the healing and encouragement you need.  All of this hard work and continuing to strive for my goal against the obstacles I have been facing is not and will not be in vain.

My time is coming.  And it is coming soon.

I must tell you all that I cannot WAIT for my summer vacation.

Peace.