Thinking....

recently, one of my co-workers challenged me to start journaling again.  I love to write, truthfully, and honestly.  One day, I plan to be another writer, a YA writer because I have lots of stories to tell.  And I have lots of ideas and imaginations that I think others would find entertaining.

I'm also looking forward to one day living in more than one location. I firmly believe my family will be located in two states; my husband and I will own homes in both Maryland and Texas.  The idea of Mary-Tex will be very real for us.  I know that sounds so far-fetched or crazy, right?  It's not just a pipe dream.

I'm looking forward to deeper and richer and more meaningful relationships with people that I love and people that I know.  I am looking forward to taking them along on the journey with me, in having more fun, doing more, going more places.

I can't wait to travel all over the world.  I can't wait...I cannot wait.

Right now, I'm listening to this amazing man, Eric Thomas.  Have you heard of him?  He's a motivational speaker.  He's a minister, and this is his time.  He's been steadily getting bigger and bigger, reaching more and more people across the world.  I love his testimony, and the story he shares with people all over the world.

He's dynamic, and most of the time it feels like he's yelling at you, but honestly, he's just so HYPE for himself, and I truly believe he's filled with the purpose given to him directly from God to reach people and motivate and inspire them to reach the levels God planned them to reach.

I know that listening to him helps me push a little harder.

I have goals and plans, and I will reach them.  God has plans for me, and I will fulfill the plans He has for my life.

Okay, I've got a lot to think about right now, and I need to do some listening.

God bless you all.

Peace.

DREAM BIG...

otherwise, there is no point.  DREAM BIG!  And Dream beyond anything anyone else can imagine for you!

It's your life you know.  Since you are the only one to live it, don't deny yourself your dreams.

I'm excited about my dreams.  You should be (about your own dreams), too!

Go get it, I say!  DREAM, DREAM, DREAM!!!!!

AND DREAM BIG!!!!

Trying to put things together

Hello, again.  It seems that when I promise to write, I don't.  Something happens.  I forget.  Yeah, so I won't promise anymore.  What I will do, is attempt for the next 21 days (or so) to write.  Just a little a day.  And I'll attempt to blog a bit in the process.

But no promises.  Because I really love writing, but I also love my job (teaching high schoolers is FUN), my husband, and my son.  Also, we're working together on a healthier lifestyle and more babies.  So I'm a bit busy.  However, with that being said, I know that you make time for the things that are important to you.  And this is important to me, but it's not at the top of the list.

I'll keep working on it, and I hope that you keep reading.

Peace and blessings to you all. :)

What do I really want....

have you ever asked yourself this question and been brutally honest about it?  No, seriously.  Do you know what you really want?

Not what you say to yourself is acceptable by "society" standards/norms.

No, not that.

Not what you believe you want based on the job you have currently, or what you have been training/trained to do.

No.

Not what everyone tells you is something you are really good at and you should "go into" because you have a gift/talent/ability.

Not that either.

I'm talking about the thing that keeps you up at night.  The longing in your heart.  The reason you only have a half-smile.  The thing or things that keep you from being fully, completely happy for your friends and acquaintances.

So....be honest with yourself for once.  Don't lie about it anymore.

What is it that you REALLY, TRULY want?  The thing your soul cries out for?

Maybe it's time you started investing in making those dreams reality.

Just thought I would put it out there for you.

Have a wonderful time, everyone.  Peace.

A Little Bit of This...a little bit of that

It's been a while since I've typed anything.  And I feel bad about that, honestly.  I miss writing; I miss the clack of the keys, of my thoughts taking shape and being formed into stories, or even more...but honestly, I've been really consumed with my life.

Watching my son grow up - he started school this year and watching him learn and become this really awesome guy is just...well, it's just amazing!  He loves to read, he's on a tee ball team and he wants to play soccer, too...what a change from this time last year!  He's also taking piano lessons from an amazing teacher...she's one of the best, truthfully.

I'm so honored to be raising him; I consider it a privilege.

My husband has made a major life decision that will allow him to more actively pursue his dreams!  This makes me happy beyond measure!

I'm just living and loving my life.

I do have a reason for getting on here, though, so forgive me if this post is a bit long.

One thing I can say is that I'm so happy with the way my life is at the very present moment.  I love my husband and my son so much.  We all love each other so much, and we love to be with each other and around each other.

We are close-knit and I pray that we always will be.  My family is like that, no matter if we talk on the phone or not; we can pick up just where we left off and our relationships are very solid.  I love them all for everything they have done to enrich my life, and I know that they are a true blessing from God.

I am so thankful for all that I have.  God has been beyond good to me.  I'm praising and thanking Him in advance for those blessings I've asked for - and this year, I'm asking for some "crazy" supernatural type things that only He can do.

I believe.  I know it will come to pass.  I will wait on God.

Okay, I just wanted to write all this down for you.  I hope and pray that all is well for you, and that you are walking in your purpose for your life.

Thanks for reading, and may you be blessed.

Peace.

....

there are some times in my life when I wonder if there are lessons that I just haven't learned, if there are things that I just keep repeating because I just don't get it.

In this season of change, here's what's transpired since I last wrote:

-That person has been out of my life, but sent me a cryptic message this week?  Not sure what to make of that one...

-Sean has become a Kindergarten Star.  He's great.  And he's growing everyday.  He's now taking piano and LOVING it. :)

-Husband says he wants to try a different line of work.  My heart is beyond overjoyed.  That means soon he'll be home with us in the evenings. :)

-I may be out of work next year.  Yes, teaching isn't the stable market it used to be.  On another note, I may lose my certification also...sheesh.

-I'm really trying hard to keep it all together.  I'm trying so hard.  I want some relief.  I need a personal sabbatical.

-I'm trying to have more babies.  And I'm working really hard at it, too. ;)

Okay, just wanted to give you an update, and perhaps, hopefully, in the near future, I'll give you more details.

Sometimes it's just good to put it all out there.  I'm so tired.

Well, take care.  Hope to blog with you again soon. :)

Tears

I'm ready to burst into tears at any moment for any reason...and actually, it's just for one reason. 
I'll never understand why until it's all over, I suppose...but it's my own fault.  I suppose it has to do with choice.

While I'm not unhappy with my choice, in fact, I'm very happy with it, I still wonder about the other choice.  The other choice might have caused me to walk a very different path, but I might have been just as happy...or...

but I will never know.  I do know that I'm so sad right now because...well, because of him.

I just need a day or two to get this all out of my system.

I promise to return to my normal laughing smiling happy self.

Just not today.

Today, I need to let it all out.

Goodbye.

Goodbye.