This one's for YOU

Okay, so I've got to put this out there, and I'm doing it so that I can be done with it - I hope.

Dear YOU,

No, I'm not going to tell the world who YOU are, and I don't need to. YOU know who YOU are. I'm so ashamed, and I feel like such a fool for letting YOU into my life.

I'm stupid. I've been naive, gullible, and extremely young when dealing with YOU. It's all my fault, actually, because I saw YOU for who YOU were when we first met.

I thought, no, YOU won't be like that with me, YOU will treat me differently because I AM different. I'm not like anyone else YOU have known or decided to get to know. My uniqueness will keep YOU from hurting me because YOU will care about me in a way YOU haven't about anyone else.

I. WAS. WRONG.
I. WAS. FOOLISH.
I. KNEW. BETTER.

But, yet and still, I found a way to trust YOU, against my better judgment, against the warnings and red flags.

Oh, it's okay, it's just YOU, and YOU are my friend, and YOU are looking out for me, and YOU do care about me, YOU even said YOU did.

HOW COULD I BE SO STUPID?

Well, I want YOU to know, that I love YOU. I truly love YOU. And YOU don't deserve it. YOU don't love me, not even if YOU tell me so. It's all apart of the game for YOU.

Don't worry, I won't let it happen again. YOU will be last on my list from now on. YOU can wait, and YOU will wait.

YOU will not destroy the happiness I have built with another, YOU will not be able to tell me those sweet words of deception any longer. YOU will just be another acquaintance, if that.

No one needs to know that YOU and I were "close" - because, well, we never were. It was all in my head.

And now, I'm letting YOU go. Move on to the next one, tell her the same lies YOU told me. Maybe she'll fall for it just like I did.

Or, maybe, she'll be smarter and wiser and see YOU coming from a mile off and tell YOU where YOU can go.

YOU might win some, but YOU just lost this one.

I'm out.

Peace.