Tonight, I've got lots on my mind. This is normal, but, tonight, I'm thinking about old friends, friends I don't see often, best friends, and people I have given my heart to.
You can give your heart, not just to a lover, but also to friends. You can be hurt by a friendship breaking up as much (or worse) as a relationship that was amorous. I know, I went there, but it's true. In some ways, I am still recovering from the loss of sister friends when I was in college.
To be very truthful, my friendships since then have been evaluated in a different light. As much as I love my newer best friends, I wonder if they will know me the way others who knew me before college do. I hope they do. Friends, especially sister friends, are hard to come by, and I love mine as much as I love myself.
I will sit and ponder my thoughts a little more. Before I go, though, the thought of old and current amorous relationships has come to the forefront in my mind. Honestly, I realize that I love hard and deep. I am super intense. If I love you, I LOVE you. No one will love you more, except our Heavenly Father. I mean it.
It has been for this reason that I'm so selective and protective of my relationships. I nurture them, give them the best environment to grow, and, I work hard to make sure to keep negative elements away so that the relationship will thrive.
My goal is to love everyone who has been given to me to love. To show them love beyond what they have known, not obsessively, but deeply, honestly and fully. Trust me, I need my space, too, so I would never smother someone or stalk them, lol. I will, however, love them to life.
Well, I guess that's all I've got for my ramblings and musings tonight. God bless you all.
Peace.
