Wow...

So, I was watching Ruby today...I missed the season premier! But that's okay, I saw the episode today, and I got all emotional watching it.

I can totally identify with her about those missing memories and just wondering why...I also understand the denial, and knowing what is fueling my issues with weight.

I'm so emotional because I am so fortunate to have an amazing small group and we are starting a new book on forgiveness, and I realize that most of that forgiveness really starts at the root of everything.

I need to forgive some very close relatives and some not so close, in order to really start processing some things...

I won't be going into detail much in this entry; I don't know if this is the time, but I do know that I am thankful for the opportunity of a new day and the chance to do something amazing in it.

It's my job, now, to do that, to work, to live, to love to the fullest.

I am so tired of that "kind of"/"sort of" life. I want the biggest, boldest, most beautiful (I know "beautifulest" is not a word...lol) life I can possibly live.

It is time.

I hope that you can find that same truth in your own life, and begin to let things go so that you can move on. :)

Love and blessings.

Oh, the weather outside is frightful...

And the family is soooo delightful! LOL!

I'm actually enjoying this time...and to be honest, at first, I was very, very upset. I was thinking...oh, great, I'm gonna be stuck in this awful apartment for who knows how many days, and all I'll be able to do is eat and sleep...(insert expletive here)!

But, truth be told, I got a real calming in my spirit very late last night. I realized that this opportunity was given to me by God to get myself in order...to get some things accomplished that I had been putting off, simple mundane tasks, like cleaning my room and organizing things...catching up on some reading, and also to reconnect with my husband a little bit.

This is a great time of reflection, and of really seeking and listening to God. Honestly, what else do I have to do? It is a blessing to have this time to do what I need to do, and prepare myself for the tests and challenges to come.

I have no reason to complain...I am blessed with heat and energy, when others around me have lost power for days. I have plenty of food to eat, and great company to share it with. :)

I have movies to watch, games to play, books to read, and journals to write in...and this blog of course. ;)

With that being said, I also have projects to complete, rooms to organize, and the time thanks to God, to do it all in.

So, my friends, if you've been complaining about the weather, perhaps this is a time for you to look inside yourself; maybe there is an incomplete task or project you now have time to complete. Maybe there is a person you need to talk to on the phone or in person, if you are fortunate enough to be able to get around. Maybe this is the time to write down that epic "To Do List" that we all talk about. Maybe it's just a time to sit still and...be.

Whatever you choose to do with this time, know that the time is all yours to use...do your best to use it wisely.

Bless you all, and may you all be safe, warm, and happy.

Peace.