So...

I want to talk about a few things - the most important one, I feel, is about the President addressing the students of the nation. I'm not going to get on my soapbox, because, frankly, if you don't know how I feel as a teacher, then, well, hey, I can't possibly write down anything to make you understand how upset I am at the scrutiny and critique this speech is getting, when, for years, I've watched several presidents speak to the students of this country without reproach or negative characterization. In fact, some of them have talked politics to us when this President, our President, President Obama basically just told the kids it is their responsibility to make something of themselves.

I'll just simply say that unfortunately, as much as many people want to say that we are a nation in healing and "over" racial division, this is just not true. There are so many prejudiced and racist people walking around in this country who just cannot handle a Black man as the nation's symbol. That's all it really boils down to, honestly.

And about the "lesson plans" that have been touted so much by many bloggers and "pundits", well, as a teacher, I actually know what a lesson plan is, and what they all are discussing sounds a lot like a worksheet to me. Not an actual lesson plan. Sorry. And, trust me, I know lesson plans. Especially after having made several this summer for my M.Ed classes, as well as preparing them for students I've taught over the years.

This is ridiculous, seriously. And, honestly, this is beyond the scope of my tolerance for foolishness. Since he has been elected, he has been ridiculed, criticized, and made out to be some sort of evil person bent on taking Democracy and turning it into something sinister.

How about we all just unite under him as our president, just like we have done for all the others in the past, whether we liked them or not, and give President Barack Obama the respect he has earned as our leader, our commander in chief. There is too much negative talk about who he is.

We don't really know him, do we? And we won't get the chance if he always has to stay on the defensive about everything he does.

Unfortunately, he knows about the Black Tax. And it looks like it's in full effect. Hopefully by this time next year, people will be more respectful and we'll be able to appear to the rest of the world as one unified nation.

Right now, I'm sad to say, we must look like a bunch of infighting clowns.

Let's get it together, y'all.

Singing

is something that I really love to do. I could probably sing all day and then some, and still want to sing some more. I've always been like that, apparently. My mom tells me that when I was younger, I would wake up singing, just like some stereotypical Disney princess, I would be all "la la la" in the morning, happy for the day and life itself.

I wonder what happened to that lil girl, and I sometimes think about her and laugh. I was so full of joy and love of life and people and things around me - trees, animals, etc.

I still feel that way, but, it's different.

Anyway, what's funny about my memories is that I wanted to be a singer and a mathematician when I grew up back then. I had it all figured out in my lil head, my four year old brain working it all out. My inspiration was a woman I saw on a TV program, or one my mother read to me about.

She was Black, like me, and she was pretty. She was a mathematician who was also a musician. I was immediately smitten with the idea of doing both those things. Combining music and math, two of my loves.

I wanted to be a mathematician and a singer.

I'm studying now to become a Math Teacher. Now, if I can only get this singing thing right.

I hope to return to the P&W team at Zion, and my Wednesdays are free, actually, so I can go. The issue, unfortunately, is beyond just the location and such.

I've got to be sure, be totally sure, that I am where I should be. I have this sinking feeling that maybe I'm not wanted...and it could just be my insecurities, but...

I just need to be sure.

I will not waste my gift. I will use it. I WILL sing.

For all the world to hear. I hope my voice brings a smile or at least inspires. May it always be something pleasant to hear, and not something that takes away from the meaning behind any words that I may sing.

I guess that's all for now. See you soon.

Peace.

Well

Today is Labor Day. I am celebrating by doing nothing, however, I really have a lot that needs to get done. Prioritizing is really very important, but, for some reason, I just want to veg out today. I probably will...and that's okay by me. But at some point today, laundry will need to be done, and I'll get up and do it.

Sometimes you just don't want to do things. You just don't want to. The thing is, you know you've grown and matured when you get up and do them anyway.

I'm going to get up and get some things done today, but I'll go easy on myself. I've got some things on my mind, and I really just need to go pray and seek God.

There's nothing wrong with that.

And then, perhaps, I'll go hide out somewhere and just write. I haven't in a while, and I really want to.

So, here I go!

Make today a good one. Do good, live life without getting hung up in the day to day of it all, and most importantly, love.

Peace.

Just bloggin'....

to be bloggin'. Lol! Actually, I just wanted to do a little reflecting about the week in general. I have gone from being full of nervous energy to being completely confident and sure of my abilities.

I've run into old faces in new places (one of my students at St. Michaels now attends the High school where I will be doing my student teaching...how's that for a small world!).

I've been really upset, and then, after processing and not saying or doing what I wanted to initially, found out all wasn't what it seemed. I'm so glad I'm growing, and getting better, and learning more maturity. I really could have made a misunderstanding a very bad situation...

I've found a way to be content with a situation that I know could be better (and should be better), and to let God handle it in His timing.

And, well, I'm starting to make peace with the fact that my life is always in flux for this moment, and that I am going to enjoy all the little things, like holding Sean and watching his favorite TV show, Wow Wow Wubbzy. :)

I guess that's all for now. This week was yet another wonderful blessing from God, and I enjoyed it. Getting back into the swing of things (meaning working every weekday all day) is a process, but I know I can master it.

Take care...I'll be falling asleep rather quickly now. It's late, and I've been past sleepy...just wanted to get this down before I went to bed.

Peace.